Just Gonna "Keep On Grindin'..."

This past week has been a grind in my road to recovery. It seems like I take two steps forward and ten steps back. Throughout my life I’ve always said, that people can knock me down 9 times, but I’ll always Get Up 10. Well... sometimes it seems I’ve been knocked down 11.... or 20 times.....

Over the past two years the only resounding feeling I’ve had is that I’m broken. That I’m never going to be the same as I was before this virus attacked my spine and central nervous system. That I’ll never get back to my former self.... and I was right.

I’ll never be that person again. She’s long gone. She was weak. She didn’t know how strong she really was. She didn’t know how to fight day in and day out with inner demons and extreme physical pain. She was scared of the unknown and the unplanned.

 

 

 But this is me now. Broken or not... but stronger than I’ve ever been inside.
I know undoubtedly that only through the Atonement we can return, perfectly, to our Father in Heaven. I’m a long way from perfect but I’m also a long way from broken. I’m whole, I’m stronger and I’m fighting. And for now, that’s all that matters.



 

Coincidentally, I got an email from my amazing brother in the mission field. His closing thoughts to the family were as simple as this:
“Keep grinding. I know the world is crazy, but as we focus on the Lord, it will seem a lot less crazy!!”

So here’s to you Rhetter.... For now, I’m just going to “keep grinding.”